It’s been a rough year for everyone, no doubt, but for me - the last 5 weeks of my life have brought some unexpected challenges and lessons to say the least. The big scary “C”, Covid-19, found its way into my system and has been holding on to several areas of my body. Yes, I consider myself incredibly lucky: I did not have to go to the hospital, I could breathe, I didn’t die. How grateful I am!
This forced staying in bed induced by incredible fatigue has given me the time to relook at ME, myself, my choices, my beliefs. It has opened a whole lot of areas of fear and doubts which I thought were long gone. But surprise! Here they are in all their evil glory!
After the first couple of weeks when the worst was over and as my son so appropriately said: “Mom, you didn’t fall off the cliff”, things seemed to get better for a few days. And then it stagnated. Each day was filled with all sorts of physical and mental changes, good and bad, happy at one moment and sad the next, experiences which sometimes seem to be unfair and frightening. It was, and still is at times, easy to fall into the deep dark hole of self-pity, ultimate misery.
The true cause of all manifestations, including sickness, are our (in this case my) innermost thoughts and feelings. Not the quick fleeting emotions, but the long held, ingrained ones. I know that what I am facing in my daily living are lessons about me, my life, my progress in unfoldment. They are here to show me what needs to be improved as this experience is very personal, it is all about me and my connection to my perception of my world. My daily lessons, as painful and frightening they may be, show me what needs to be improved in my world, i.e. my thinking and feeling, my Truth.
What truth? The Truth of Life. Knowing the Laws of the Universe, the Laws of God or better called the Law of the Allness of Good. I have Faith in the Allness of Good. It is my life’s principle.
Real or true Faith is not blind faith. True Faith is Understanding, Confidence, or the Faith in the Almighty’s Truth. It is Faith that all will work out no matter what the situation, knowing the truth of Universal perfection. Faith is the knowing that everything I desire already exists as a possibility in mind, including perfect health. It is a certainty of good things yet to come.